When I was my younger self I don’t remember not feeling daring. Whether it was watching a scarey movie or being out with friends possibly where I wasn’t ‘supposed’ to be. (not that I like to admit that). I wasn’t afraid to drive 3 hours as a teenager, alone to see old friends, in the dark even. I think, remembering back, I was ‘pretty’ confident in myself for the most part…or was I? I have to be honest I don’t really remember.
So when did it happen? When did I decide to play it safe? When in my life did I decide I didn’t want to be daring but be content inside my life… I think a few things entered into this happening. My first husband left me when the boys were 3 years and 2 weeks old respectively. Although that part of my life is way more than over; I remember. But even then I was daring in my opinion. I extended myself out there to find someone who would take care of me and my 2 boys. I know, I know we don’t need to be taken care of; so to speak.. but who are we kidding? I would much rather raise my children with someone who loves me than do it alone. (who by the way I am lucky to have in my life for almost the last 18 years).
Then when I was 32 something happened to my neck/back area. It was as simple as blow drying my hair; but enough that I couldn’t walk standing straight up by the end of that day. This happening somewhat changed me. I no longer could function like I had. No more riding 4 wheelers, (not that I did this on a regular basis),but I had to pass when I was offered or standing/walking for long amounts of time . I found out eventually I had Degenerative Disc Disease of my neck and back. This not only changed me a bit physically, but I think mentally I didn’t feel as adventurous or daring for that matter anymore.
Now we are at 11 years later, many chiropractor appointments and realizing what I can do and what I can’t. I have decided instead of trying to be physically daring; I will now be daring in my work; daring in my non-physical areas. Part of that means that I am going to start being more ‘daring’ in sharing more of myself on my blog. I have figured out I can physically push myself farther than I have realized when I ran through the Detroit airport to catch my connecting flight in 20 minutes when I only had 30 minutes altogether. So why not push myself mentally and give more of myself?
So that is how I will go about ‘Daring Myself….’
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Newly middle-aged wife of 1, Mom of 3, Grandma of 2. A professional blogger who has lived in 3 places since losing her home to a house fire in October 2018 with her husband. Becky appreciates being self-employed which has allowed her to work from 'anywhere'. Life is better when you can laugh. As you can tell by her Facebook page where she keeps the humor memes going daily. Becky looks forward to the upcoming new year. It will be fun to see what 2020 holds.