Daring Myself..

Daring Myself..

When I was my younger self I don’t remember not feeling daring. Whether it was watching a scarey movie or being out with friends possibly where I wasn’t ‘supposed’ to be. (not that I like to admit that). I wasn’t afraid to drive 3 hours as a teenager, alone to see old friends, in the dark even. I think, remembering back, I was ‘pretty’ confident in myself for the most part…or was I? I have to be honest I don’t really remember.

So when did it happen? When did I decide to play it safe? When in my life did I decide I didn’t want to be daring  but be content inside my life… I think a few things entered into this happening. My first husband left me when the boys were 3 years and 2 weeks old respectively. Although that part of my life is way more than over; I remember. But even then I was daring in my opinion. I extended myself out there to find someone who would take care of me and my 2 boys. I know, I know we don’t need to be taken care of; so to speak.. but who are we kidding? I would much rather raise my children with someone who loves me than do it alone.  (who by the way I am lucky to have in my life for almost the last 18 years).

Then when I was 32 something happened to my neck/back area. It was as simple as blow drying my hair; but enough that I couldn’t walk standing straight up by the end of that day. This happening somewhat changed me. I no longer could function like I had. No more riding 4 wheelers, (not that I did this on a regular basis),but I had to pass when I was offered or standing/walking for long amounts of time . I found out eventually I had Degenerative Disc Disease of my neck and back. This not only changed me a bit physically, but I think mentally I didn’t feel as adventurous or daring for that matter anymore.

Now we are at 11 years later, many chiropractor appointments and realizing what I can do and what I can’t. I have decided instead of trying to be physically daring; I will now be daring in my work; daring in my non-physical areas.  Part of that means that I am going to start being more ‘daring’ in sharing more of myself on my blog. I have figured out I can physically push myself farther than I have realized when I ran through the Detroit airport to catch my connecting flight in 20 minutes when I only had 30 minutes altogether. So why not push myself mentally and give more of myself?

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So that is how I will go about ‘Daring Myself….’